Infatuation

Hiring a hacker

For $500

he will email me

pictures of my friend’s sister.

 

This hacker

his alias is Dirty Little Mister

Refreshing my inbox incessantly –

today is going to be the day –

or my money back!

 

When you mix

the pervy with the nerdy

this is what you get

 

No disrespect

I just want to see you naked

For courting have no patience

and that time might be wasted

This is better. You’re so unsuspecting.

 

Staying caffeinated

Big can of Mountain Dew

sitting by my side

Chipper and antsy

like children on Christmas

 

I get an email

Subject says: ENJOY – 15 images from phone

Saw nipples and I freaked

Got up in disbelief and paced

Shot glances at the screen

till I believed

 

I said goodnight

to family members who were up

If they think I’m sleeping

they’ll be less likely to interrupt

You see? I’m pointing at my right temple now –

I’m smart

 

I’ll just

say this about the pics

They were the shit!

Worth every penny

This is material

for nights plenty

 

Weeks later

I walked by her

She was on the porch

with her boyfriend, talking

We both looked at her

lustfully

And we probably both

see through her clothes

with a quite

accurate imagination

Or at the very least –

just me 😉

Sky, Inspire Me

Lasso around a cloud

makes a balloon – and string

held by an animal

 

Over the shoulder carry

a dream found, captured.

My dream is not a slave.

 

Parading around town.

Navy blue sports jacket

Jeans the color of bats

 

Bare feet connect my dream

to concrete plan, concrete.

I’m just the medium.

 

Now, once upon a night

I thought ambitious thoughts.

I went to the garage

and found what I had sought

 

I spun it over head –

spun like propellers, fast.

Blue bike popped a wheelie,

caught meaning as it passed

 

Nights long, fasting – feasting

on quick ruminations,

the things that make blueprints.

Write while weight is erasing

 

Drift ever so lightly, heels scrape the ground

Carried by my comrades – I love you guys

Rising. Rising.  I weigh nearly no pounds

Take off for good with propulsion of sigh

 

My dreams, you see…are attached to me

My neck is where they latched on to…breath (?)

Words of Encouragement 

Unloved, friendless, resentment

Unoccupied, complacent, tormented by the past

Weak, anemic, swaying crazily as light breeze passes
Diminished, discouraged, decimated
Inarticulate, unwise, revolting reflection

Shameful, embarrassed for existing in this state
Competed, defeated, crumbling